They simply don’t care


So I’ve started back teaching again for this semester. I just had my second week of teaching and I’m really not enjoying it.

The majority of my classes are so lazy, don’t want to do anything, and just don’t want to be there. I just hate having to teach a class, asking them a question such as ‘Have you seen this film?’ and all 30 students just stare at me and not say a word.

Like they can’t even be bothered to reply either yes or no. That’s what really drives me mad. I feel like they don’t care what the hell I say. I’m not important enough to be given a reply. Last semester I had much better students. Pretty much all of them were girls, and I really got on well with all of them. So now I’m stuck with lots of boys that don’t give a crap about English, and are only there because they have to be.

My class this was week was that I was explaining the rules, then we did a listening exercise, and finally I played a game with them. So do the boring stuff first and then the game. But many classes just didn’t seem bothered with anything. Ok the game was a bit better, but I just feel so demoted. I really can’t be bothered teaching these students, and I feel I’m going to dread every week.

I even told them “Guys please answer my questions, it makes me feel bad when no one answers”. Still nothing.

So I don’t know what to do. I feel like I’m accommodating for the students, whereas it should be them accommodating for me. I’m here to teach them English, but all they want to do is play games and play on their phones…. oh or sleep.

During the break one girl came up and said the class is boring. Jesus all I did was the rules of the classroom and a listening activity. There was even a video they could watch!! So I can’t understand how they are bored with just that???? Oh yeah she loved the game after the break, but I need to try and teach them something?!

These kids are 18 years and over. I can’t remember every thinking that my class was boring. Maybe it was but I’d never say it to my teacher?!? I just got on with it and listened to them.

These kids don’t even bring a PEN to class. One of my classroom rules was ‘Bring a pen, notebook and textbook to every class’. Like I actually have to say that to them, but I do. Lots don’t bring a pen or notebook, and some with no notebook just write in their textbook instead.

Like they only need 3 things!!! Sometimes I feel like I’m teaching children. Or worse, they bring a bag with absolutely nothing in it. Or I hear the famous “I forgot my things”.

How lazy can they be?

I miss my old students. I could have a laugh with them. But with these ones, I’m pretty sure half of the boys stay in their dorm rooms all day and night huddled by their computer just playing video games. No interaction with the outside world at all.

Last semester I had great plans to teach, but now I really don’t care. The students don’t care, so why should I? I feel like I’m wasting my time, especially when they don’t even answer me.

I can’t wait to be finished with them. Other teachers are planning on staying another year, but I just can’t. It’s too demoralising for me. I want a job that is meaningful, instead of being a clown and a comedian in class.

So I’m trying to figure out the easiest method of not teaching these students anything, more games (and even a few classes weren’t too bothered with the ones I played already)  and showing them films (I’m already planning on showing one next week), so I can save myself a few weeks of trying to teach them something.

I hope the next few weeks will be better, only 15 more weeks (yay….)


Is It Because I’m A Woman?


So I received my timetable for this coming semester… and guess what, out of all the (male) teachers that I work with, I’m the only one who received an extra day of work.

Another thing. I’m the only female foreign teacher.

So I really don’t know what to make of the whole thing. At the moment I’m thinking “That stupid school, giving all the male teachers what they want, and then making me have the worst schedule… they know I’m a woman and won’t complain, and plus they are afraid of all the males teachers here”. That’s what I’m thinking.

So I was rather upset when I received it, all the men happy and cheerful that they all got a wonderful schedule. Me, the only girl teacher, working the exam same amount of classes as them, but with an extra day added it.

Fair enough give me another 2/3 class on Monday to make it worthwhile, but I’m only working one class on Monday. It’s such a waste. I went down and asked them to change it but of course they can’t. That group can’t move. Well then why couldn’t they have given that group to a teacher who actually WORKS on Monday.

I hate to say it but I really feel it’s because I’m a girl. What other reason could it be. I know they are afraid of one certain teacher here, so of course he will ALWAYS get the timetable he wants, so maybe they don’t feel scared of me, I don’t know.

I wouldn’t mind if another teacher had the same as me, because then I wouldn’t be singled out. But I’m the ONLY ONE.

Last semester was the same, they gave me the worst schedule out of everyone. Everyone had 4 days off and I had to work 5. Miraculously I ended up working 3 because they kept changing my schedule and it just ended up that way, but still, they gave me more days than the others. It wasn’t them ‘trying’ to help me get a better one, it was really just luck and their own mistakes that I received a 3 day working week.

So I’m hopefully going to try and see if I can split the Monday class into other classes of mine. Of course the school won’t allow me to do it because of ‘rules’, but I know another teacher did that last semester and it was fine for him. So I’m going to try and do it and then let them know.

I’m just so angry that I’m the only that they do this to. I’m the only female teacher that they do this do. Once all the men are happy.


Well Hello Again (But Soon Goodbye)


After my one month in Mexico, we’ve once again arrived back to China… however this will be the last time having to travelling a long distance to it, as we can happily and most definitely say that during the summer we will be leaving The Middle Kingdom. And that is for certain!

We feel our time is done in Chengdu, and we really want to move closer to our families, either in Mexico or Ireland…they are both much easier to travel to than China. We plan on getting married, hopefully have kids… and we just feel like we can’t do those things here. So we are now counting down the days to leave, and we can’t wait!

Since we left at the end of January, the weather in Chengdu has really warmed up, so much so that we don’t need to wear our coats now. When we left the temperature was around 10 degrees, but since we arrived back it’s been around 20 degrees. I won’t complain about that!

We start work again on Monday (unfortunately) and then we finish the beginning of July, so we will hopefully start booking flights home to Ireland before then and start selling our things.

It’s a nice feeling to know that we are moving on!


Feeling A Tremor

Myself, my fiancé and his Mum and Dad decided that we’d go to the cinema and watch the new film ‘Black Panther’. (Great film!) So we arrived, bought our tickets and we were in a supermarket buying some drinks to take in with us. As we were paying, I suddenly felt a swaying sensation. I thought I was becoming dizzy or something, but as I looked around I realised that the whole supermarket was swaying side to side. It wasn’t moving so much as to make us fall or have any of the products there fall, but it was noticeable. I look at my fiancés Mum and she too looks scared.

Suddenly the cashier starts shouting in Spanish and everybody starts to rush towards the exit. I was afraid in case the earthquake would get worse! It was  a relief to get outside with everyone else! In September there was a very bad one in Mexico city and it affected the town where we are now, so I’m sure everybody was scared! They know how bad earthquakes can be!

So that was my first real experience of an earthquake. I think it was around 7 on the Richter Scale in Mexico city, so we only felt a little of that! We’ve had tremors in Chengdu, but they would be very very slight, and sometimes I didn’t even know that an earthquake happened until I heard about it from other people.

But yeah, everyone here has been shook up from the last bad earthquake that happened, so I’m sure it’s even scarier for them!

We had to wait outside for about 20 and then everyone was allowed back inside. We weren’t sure if the cinema would stay play the films, but thankfully we could watch it!


Cuernavaca, Mexico

My fiancé is originally from Cancun, where he spent most of his life there. Then he moved to Cuernavaca which is south of Mexico city where he went to University. As much as Cancun is very popular with tourists and having gorgeous beaches and weather, whenever I ask him where is the worst place he has visited in Mexico, he always states Cancun. He says that the place has changed a lot since he left and he just doesn’t want to live there anymore.

His Mum and Dad now live in Cuernavaca and it’s known for it’s good weather and that many people from Mexico city come here to get out of the hustle and bustle for a while. Many have second homes in Cuernavaca to come to during holidays. Here are some pictures I took from the centre of the city; I love the architecture and it’s so colourful!

In the centre there are many stalls and you can buy different types of Mexican food, like corn on the cob with mayonnaise and chili powder on it; I know it sounds weird, and I didn’t really like it when I tried it, but apparently it’s very popular here in Mexico! Also you can buy lot of different fruit drinks, made when you order! We tried a pina colada: pineapple, coconut and cinnamon, and it was so nice! I’ll definitely be getting it again!


Here is one of the little shop like places to buy your fruit juices. You can get a small cup or a big one. The big one is huge and I would struggle to finish one by myself!




The city is also quite popular with foreigners wanting to learn Spanish, so there are quite a few private languages companies here. Although they are VERY expensive I might add!

Cuernavaca is about 1 hour drive from Mexico city, so it’s a good place to live if you want to travel to the capital.

So yes I really like the city and I can’t wait to stay a bit longer once I leave China!


Being an interracial couple in: China


Having met my wonder Mexican fiancé in China and both being foreigners to that country, we have encountered a few things while we have been together here as an interracial couple that I will mention!

So in China, I know that both of us our foreigners, however my boyfriend has brown skin, black hair and brown eyes. As do Chinese people. Me being white, I definitely stick out. But my fiancé really blends in, so much so that many Chinese people sometimes think that he is Chinese.

One day we were waiting for our friend outside her apartment complex. This really old Chinese man comes walking up and starts blabbering in Chinese to my fiancé. At this stage we only knew basic Chinese phrases, so he kept telling the man “I don’t understand, I don’t understand”. Still, the man kept chatting in Chinese to him, and all my fiancé could do was smile and hope he would leave soon.

When we go to a restaurant, the waiters usually come with the menu to my fiancé, as me being an obvious foreigner, I won’t understand the characters. When speaking, they will direct their attention to him rather than me.

A lot of Chinese people don’t know where my fiancé is from. We have heard people say he is from India, Indonesia, Peru, Philippines and from Arab countries. On two occasions people actually said that he looked like Barack Obama! When we visited the Philippines, many Philippines actually thought he was from their country as well, and were shocked when he told them that he wasn’t!

When he shows photos of his family and asks a person where do they think they are from, they will say China. So yes, in China I have a feeling that many people think that I’m going out with a Chinese person!

So it’s kind of strange in a way; I know both of us are foreigners, but I sometimes feel that Chinese people think that I’m going out with one of their own…. that’s until he opens his mouth and tries to speak Mandarin and then they realise “Oh, this man’s not Chinese!!?!… then where is he from!?”

But I really don’t blame them. When we first met, I don’t think I would have known where he was from if he didn’t tell me! He can blend in with people from many countries!


What’s that noise?

What’s that noise?

I was relaxing with my fiancé one day and I notice a couple of loud POPS coming from far away in the distance. I was thinking to myself ‘What are those loud noises??? It’s 3 o’clock in the afternoon, surely it can’t be fireworks…… it’s far too early for that…. what could it be….

….oh….. maybe it’s gunshots….?!?!’

I am in Mexico after all, where the narcos and cartels are rife. I began thinking ‘Oh god I hope there are no shootings happening, it definitely is an unsafe place if shootings are happening in a tourist city in the middle of the day!’

So I ask my fiancé what the loud noises are. He simply says that they are fireworks.

FIREWORKS??? Why at this time? How the hell can they see them in the sky during the day time?

So I ask him and he explains that many people here celebrate different saints and what not, so these fall on different days and they celebrate them during the day time!

Ohhh…. now I get it. My head was thinking all sorts! I must say it’s a bit weird celebrating with fireworks during the day, but I’d much rather harmless celebrations then the other option!

So now when I hear those loud POPS I needed worry! It’s a religious celebration!