Figuring Out The Future (And Becoming Scared)

Myself and my boyfriend have been thinking more and more about the future lately. When we should leave China, what to do after, maybe do a course on something, moving to Mexico (so I can learn Spanish)…. and the more and more I think about it, the more I realise how comfortable I am here in China.

But I know I can’t spend my life here… unless I want to teach ‘He is big, she is small’ for the rest of my life.

It’s scary though… I’ve been reading more and more about Ireland and it’s rent crisis: rent in Ireland has increased every month… for 50 months straight.

There is just no way I can afford to rent in Ireland. At the moment I can’t see how I can get my life going…. rent is too expensive for me… I can’t afford a car…. never mind paying for it’s insurance.

I should have already started setting up a pension… plus god knows what the situation is when I return to Ireland and can’t get a job…If I can apply for the government to give me a supplement or is that all to do with tax…. with which I haven’t contributed to for over 3 years.

I’m just so unprepared for everything.

I’ve read that the top paying salaries in Ireland are engineering,accounting, law and being a chief director…. and I have absolutely no interest in those types of jobs whatsoever. So that’s me out of earning a great salary.

Plus I would like to have kids one day….ideally when I’m 30. So only 4 more years left!

I feel like whatever we do we wont have options; In Mexico my boyfriend will find it difficult to find a job, and if he does, it will be low paying.

For me, I’m back again teaching English… just this time in a different country.

However in Ireland, where my boyfriend would like to live one day… everything is just too expensive, plus where will we live if we can’t afford to rent?

I’m scared for the future because I’m not prepared. I honestly don’t know how I’m going to live my life when I can’t afford to.

We both need to do some serious thinking and try and begin to sort out both of our lives.

再见

爱玲

 

 

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4 thoughts on “Figuring Out The Future (And Becoming Scared)

    • Oh that sounds very very appealing! Rafa has to sort out his Spanish passport so he can work in the EU so whenever he gets that we can sort of have more options! Glasgow maybe! Yeah living in China really just prolongs the time until we have to ‘grow up’….

    • Oh I’m a definite worrier. I want to learn Spanish from Mexico and plus my boyfriends family are there so it would be nice to be near them. Plus I miss my family back in Ireland a lot, so at one point I would like to return to spend some time with them. But yeah you’re right I know there are plenty of places to choose from so I suppose I’ll never to stuck for somewhere to live. Thank you!

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