I’ve tried hard to keep writing things for this blog, but to be honest I’ve been living a pretty boring life at the moment, and I’ve nothing really to talk about!
Weeks have turned into 2 months of not finding a job for neither of us here in Ireland, so we haven’t been doing anything in order to try and save money. We splurged a few days ago and bought an Air Fryer for €40 so that we could air fry some things in the mobile home without having to go to my parents house. It’s actually great and I would recommend you buy one. You don’t need to add oil so everything you cook is much healthier than using a pan or whatever else. We usually air fry sausages and that in it.
I try and think of the positives of not having a job, and being with the family is a big one. But now I’m just kind of getting fed up now. Not earning any money at all is hitting us too, so we are just trying to be careful with our spending.
I was a bit upset a few days ago because I’ve been applying to jobs and getting rejections and it brings me back to why I left Ireland over 5 years ago in the first place. I couldn’t get a job. So now, being back and yet again not being able to get a job just upsets me. I didn’t expect it would be this difficult and I honestly had high hopes of securing something by now. I feel as if I’m back to when I was finished college 6 years ago and was applying for this and that and not getting anywhere.
Then what annoys me is that I know with 100% certainty I would get a job in China in an instant. I really really miss China, and somedays when I’m frustrated I just feel like packing up and moving back, but now I just want to be close to my family and that’s that. I’d never say China is out of the picture; it will always still be on the cards, but I think it would be like a last resort for us. But I have to say I really do miss it!
It’s hard though. Sometimes I feel it was a mistake to leave China. A lot of things didn’t go to plan and over a year later we still don’t know what we are at. Every path we choose has hurdles so we need to carefully plan what our next steps are, if it would benefit us and what are the obstacles if we do this or that.
But I hope the month of August will bring some good news for us!