I got a job!

I’ve disappeared from my blog for a good while now, but at least I’ve got some good news! I finally, after 2 years of being in Ireland, have gotten a full time job! I work as a Healthcare Assistant/Carer in a nursing home 10 minutes drive from where I live. I started on Tuesday and I was wrecked after it! I work from 8am to 8pm so you can imagine how tired I was!

There is lots to learn but I had a lovely senior HCA with me on Tuesday and she was just so nice. She was Filipino and she has lived in Ireland over 20 years.

I’ve been waiting for a job since I finished my Healthcare Support course in May, and for a while I was getting desperate as there were just no jobs popping up. Then suddenly they all appeared at once, so I applied for plenty. I got another job offer for a place half an hour away, but I took the one closer to me because I don’t think I’d like to have to drive 30 mins home after a 12 hour shift.

So that’s one bit of good news that came my way. Through sweat and tears I managed to finish my course, and I swear that’s my last one for a good while now! I’m tired and just done with doing course after course.

Another bit of good news is that my sister had a baby girl in May. She is just gorgeous and I love her to bits. She’s adorable and it’s great to see Mam and Dad enjoy spending time with her. My sister in law is also expecting a baby in October so there will be plenty of babies about! Myself and my husband have our wee cat Lola so she completes our little family. Unfortunately during our walks outside she has managed to get fleas, so now I’m getting bitten in bed by them. They are driving me mad so we are trying really hard to get rid of them!

That’s really all the news that I have. I hope to start posting more on this. I feel bad abandoning it, but I just wasn’t up to it for the past few months and just didn’t feel great mentally. Hopefully this job will be something good for me, because I really need some positive things happening!

Aisling

Sorry Blog!

When I started this blog years ago I promised myself that I would write in it every single month. Whether it was 4 posts of 1, I would try and write something every month. I was doing great for years but I finally broke my streak!

I haven’t posted anything for a few months and I haven’t even opened my wordpress account until this week. I lost motivation to do pretty much anything these past few months, so that included writing in this. With this Covid 19 and other things, my mental health hasn’t been great lately, so writing a blog was definitely not a priority of mine.

Thankfully I feel there has been an improvement with medication that I started taking and I continue seeing my therapist, so I’m thinking more positively which is good. I started walking again, and although I miss some days (I only done it twice this week), I don’t get upset when I don’t do it. I’m trying which is the important thing.

My Spanish has taken a nose-dive unfortunately and I have just lost my motivation to learn it. I haven’t had an i-talki class for a few weeks so I’m sure my 2 teachers are wondering what happened me! But hopefully I’ll get back into it again.

My course is still going but it’s all online now. I like the fact that I don’t have to go to the school, however it’s very hard to concentrate, especially when the theme is quite boring, but I’m slowly getting through it. My husband has been helping me with my assignments which has been a great help because I just can’t seem to get them done by myself.

Finally our two cats Lola and Scoby are doing great. I love them to bits and they really make me happy, which is something I really need. Although the pandemic hit and all that, finding them was something that we all needed. Ha my Dad is tortured with Scoby though as he keeps ripping the arms of his leather sofa, so he would beg to differ.

But he’s still so cute though.

Aisling

A Wee Trip To Dublin

It’s not very common that me and my husband take a day to ourselves and go visit a new place. Either the weather is terrible, we have no money or we are just too lazy, it’s hard for us to get motivated!

So we both decided that we would try and do something fun together during the weekend, and we organised to go to Dublin for the day. It takes about 1.5 hours to reach the capital from where we live, so a day trip is quite doable.

Just out of curiosity, I decided to check the prices of hotels in the area. Because there aren’t many tourists in Ireland, I thought that maybe the prices of accommodation may have reduced.

Luckily enough I found a room in the Jurys Hotel, Parnell Street which cost us €89 for the night, which wasn’t bad at all! We use booking.com a lot so we got €10 off the price, so it actually came out as €80! It was a spur of the moment decision but we decided to book it anyway because it was good value! The hotel is literally just off one of the main streets of Dublin, and it was just a short 10 minute walk to the bus pick up area to get us home.

And I have to say, I loved our weekend away! We both had a great time together and I’m really glad we went!

We arrived at about 11am and we were also able to check in early which was good! For lunch we went to Boojums, a cheap place that sells burritos and things like that. I like the burritos because you can choose what you want to put in it and they are also very filling!

I saw a Chinese shop online that sells Chinese imports so after we ate we decided to walk down there and buy Chinese sauces that we couldn’t buy anywhere else. We had a great time looking at all the imported stuff that we used to come across all the time while living in China. It was great but also it made me miss China as well!

So we stocked up on lots of sauces and then left! We walked around some more until we found another Chinese import shop which we had a wander around. We were surprised when we saw that they stocked Mexican sauces!

Our bag was very heavy so we decided to head back to the hotel and drop it at the hotel. We took another 20 minute break and headed out again, this time we visited the National Gallery of Ireland. I love this Gallery; it’s free, it’s really well run, it’s clean, inviting and they have some lovely exhibitions and paintings. The Gallery closes at 5pm so we then left and walked around the centre where we bought ice-creams (coffee for me and rum/raison for my husband) and we ate them in St Stephens Green.

Becoming cold from the ice-cream, we walked around the park and around the shopping area until we decided to head back to the apartment. We sneakily decided to buy 2 beers in the shop so we could enjoy them in our hotel room before we headed back out for dinner. We were surprised to see that they had an ice-machine in the hotel! I don’t stay in hotels pretty much at all, so maybe this is quite common in Irish hotels, but we definitely used it for our beers!

We saw that there was a Nandos restaurant about a 5 minute walk from the hotel so we went there for dinner. It’s a British restaurant that specialises in spicy chicken and I remember a few years ago everybody wanted a Nandos restaurant in Ireland! Now there are loads of them about, but not where I live!

We enjoyed 2 ciders while there and we were pleasantly surprised at how nice the food was! We were stuffed by the end of it! We left at about 9pm and headed back to the hotel then.

We had a fantastic time together and it really made me consider doing something like it again. I didn’t worry about anything (I’m a terrible worrier) and I just concentrated on the day and it was great.

What I’m also really proud of: I spoke nearly the entire time in Spanish! I said to my husband “Once we are on the bus we are only speaking Spanish”. And we did, well most of it! So I’m really proud of myself!

Because Dublin has a whole array of ethnicities, I don’t feel like I stand out when I’m speaking Spanish, however in the town where I live, with a population of about 40,000 people, I don’t feel very comfortable speaking in Spanish. Not many visitors come to my town, so people would be more surprised to hear a person not speaking English. I suppose I’m afraid that someone would come up to us and shout “Speak English!!” or mutter some racist comment.

I know it’s not my problem and I shouldn’t be ashamed, but to be honest I really don’t want to come across racism against me or my husband in the town that I grew up in. So it’s hard to know what to do!

But anyway, we bought enjoyed our time away and it spurred us to try and get out of the house more and enjoy being with each other!

Where we stayed: Jurys Hotel, Parnell Street Dublin.

What I liked: It was situated really close to everything and you even have the LUAS literally outside the hotel. The bed is really comfortable and the duvet is very warm.

What I disliked: The walls were literally wallpaper so you can hear everything from the room next door. Even if they were just speaking in a normal voice you can literally eavesdrop on everything they are saying. Also the window doesn’t open so you can’t get any fresh air.

Would I stay again: Yes I would, especially if the price is low, however I would ask to be put in a room where there aren’t people next to you, (which can be impossible during high season)

Aisling

I’m Not Moving In Life

Before I left China I had great hopes: we’ll head to Ireland, I’ll get a job in Tourism, and everything will be fine!

Well no, it didn’t go that way at all. We went to Mexico and that didn’t work out for us, so then we went to Ireland and I thought “Well now I can get a job in a travel agency or something like that”.

No…. I wasn’t able to get anything. So I decided to do a 9 month course in Tourism so that I would DEFINITELY be able to get a job.

Well, a little Coronavirus Pandemic happened just before I graduated. I’ve my 8 modules completed with Distinctions in them all, and now there isn’t a job to be found in anything related to tourism.

Like I really feel I can’t get a break. Like really.

There are times where I really really regret leaving China. Yeah I would have been far from my family, but ever since I left nothing has worked out in my favour. I loved my life there, and I mourn it a lot.

Last September my husband found a job that is literally a 15 minute cycle from where we live. He actually started the same day that I started my tourism course! I remember thinking that that was a sign that everything is working out ok and we are finally headed in the right direction.

I loved my course, I done really well in the subjects, and I learned that I actually enjoy studying and learning new things. I felt that I was in the perfect course for me and everything that I learned would help me to secure a job in the travel industry.

But unfortunately with the Coronavirus, I’m literally in the same position as I was 1 year ago. No job and having to do yet another course.

When am I ever going to stop being a student? When am I going to have enough qualifications that will help me get a job? When will I ever stop studying? When can I start earning a full time wage? That’s what it feels like…. I’m going to be studying forever for a job that won’t even pay well.

I know people wanting to become doctors study for years on end, but at the end of it they will get a really high salary. I completed a 4 year degree, a 1 year course and now I’m most likely going to have to do another 1 year course. That’s 6 years of studying and I haven’t even gotten on the career ladder! I’m stuck in the mud at the bottom of it, trying to pull myself out while everyone else is climbing up and up the ladder. My face twisted in sadness and despair while everyone is clambering up.

I’m afraid to do anything now. I went to Mexico thinking that I would become fluent in Spanish, and instead what happened was that I was very unhappy and gained weight.

I thought going back to Ireland would be better, which I did, and although I was happier, I was back in the town that I left all those years ago because I couldn’t get a job.

I just can’t get going in life at all, and everything that I’ve done to change it just isn’t working. So I’m afraid to do anything in case it’s the dreaded “Oh, yet again you chose wrong Aisling. Like Mexico, like Ireland, like your course…. you chose the wrong thing”.

I really just want to get on the right path and not regret it like always!

Aisling

 

1 Word That I Can’t Pronounce in Spanish

As I want to learn more Spanish words, I was reading one of my Spanish story books that I brought home from Mexico. They are really for native Spanish speaking children, but the level is fine for me, there are a few pictures inside, and the font size is much bigger! So I decided to buy 3 of them!

It was in one of these books where I saw this word.  I immediately thought “That looks like it’s made up, that can’t be real!”

So I looked it up and yes, it is actually quite real!

….ronronear…

This means ‘to purr’ in Spanish. I was reading a short story about a black cat and this word crept up a few times.

I don’t know why it’s weird, it’s just how it’s written and how it is pronounced. It just doesn’t sound like a ‘normal’ Spanish word!

Incidentally, this is one word that I can’t say either! There is only a slight roll of the tongue when pronouncing the ‘r’s and I just can’t seem to get my tongue back in the right position to say the second ‘r’!

Before I used to have trouble saying ‘euro’. The ‘EUro’ sound is different to the way you say it in English and I just couldn’t get it right! However after practicing I can say it ok now!

The rolling ‘R’s are usually fine however I do trip up on them sometimes, especially when I speak too fast.

But this word I just can’t say. I tried and tried and my husband was also trying to teach me how to say it but I’m just not getting it! It’s not exactly a really important word to say so I’m not overly concerned about it!

I wonder will I find some other weird sounding words the next time I read my books!

Aisling

 

2 Months Since My Ankle Sprain

So I sprained my ankle at the end of April this year, so it’s about 2 months since it happened.

And you know what?

It’s still not better.

I can walk fine and I don’t have a limp, but every morning when I get out of bed and start walking I limp. It’s sore and it feels stiff in the mornings. But then all of a sudden the pain and stiffness is gone and I can walk normally. So that’s the first thing that I notice.

I seem to struggle going down stairs and I have to go down slowly as it’s uncomfortable for my foot.

It’s also still a little swollen in one area, and it doesn’t seem to be going down at all. It kind of annoys me because I have chunky ankles (unfortunately) so this swelling does not help this!

There’s also some tenderness in one spot as well, and when I move it certain ways it hurts.

Finally, I also can’t run! I realised this when I was going somewhere with my Dad and I started running to get my things when suddenly I felt pain in my foot and I thought “Oh no, it seems I can’t run!” So I quickly walked instead!

I knew it would take a while to heal but I just worry that this is what it is going to be like forever! I hope not!

I kind of abandoned my exercises to help my foot for a while but I’ve gotten back into it so hopefully that will help. I just kind of thought that it will heal when it’s supposed to.

I knew it would be a long process, but the doctor did say it will heal within 14-21 days…… so I did actually believe him! But yet here I am 60 days after the accident and it’s still not better.

But anyway, I can walk so that’s the most important thing. I just have to be careful and hope that one day it will heal and I’ll be able to play badminton with the family and be able to actually run and hit the shuttlecock! I’m absolutely rubbish at it now because I’m stuck in one spot!

Aisling

 

My Ankle Has Improved!

My last post talked about how I injured a ligament in my right ankle when I was walking down some steps, and although it was EXTREMELY painful at the time, it has improved greatly since then!

For a while I was walking with a limp but now I try to walk as normal as I can. I don’t need the crutches anymore, and pain wise it’s actually fine now. I can’t twist my foot though, or run (which I found out yesterday) but I can walk around as usual. I just have to be that extra careful the way I move my foot.

It’s still bruised and theres still a little bit of swelling, so that causes pain when I touch it, so I don’t know when all that will disappear. The times when it’s sore is usually after I walk for a while, I turn it a funny way and when I wake up in the morning and walk on it.

It will be 3 weeks this Tuesday since I injured it, and at the beginning I thought it would take ages to heal. I could hardly move it, it was bruised and really swollen.

But I’m surprised that it is healing ok though and I can walk on it. I’m still doing the alphabet with my foot (which is a little sore to do), I do stretches and I balance on the bad ankle. Apparently this is to build up muscle so that a sprain is less likely to happen in the future.

I read that now that because I sprained it once it’s going to be easier for me to do it again, which I certainly do not want to happen again!! Thankfully I’ve never broken a bone or had anything major happen me, but this was the sorest thing that happened me, so I really don’t want to experience that again!

I haven’t drove yet but I might go out tomorrow and see how it is. Ireland is starting phase 1 of it’s recovery tomorrow so hardware shops, garden centres and other work places will be open again. But it’s never going to be the same again, at least not for a long long time.

Aisling