When Things Bother Me

To be honest I don’t really know what to write in this post. Things have been bothering me lately, and I don’t know what to do. My wedding is coming up and that’s added pressure. I had wanted my wedding day to be a relaxed affair, and not like a ‘normal’ wedding. That’s what I first planned. We were going to have it in our garden in Mexico, turning the swimming pool into a dance area. We were looking at prices for lights, dj, food…. but then we realised that 50 people just won’t fit in the garden, so we had to change plans.

So now I’m having this ‘normal’ wedding like everyone else in a venue; a reception, a toast….. and although I hope it will be a good day… it’s not exactly what I wanted for my wedding. I don’t like being centre of attention, so having a typical wedding day isn’t something I would choose.

I was even looking looking at dresses that weren’t even typical wedding dresses. But then once we moved it to the venue and I realised that yes it’s a full blown thing, then I kind of HAD to resort to getting a typical white wedding dress.

I’m looking forward to the day and then I’m not. I just hope that all will be ok. So that and just other things are stressing me out. Sometimes I feel it was the wrong decision to move to Mexico. And sometimes I am very unhappy with the situation I’m in. Maybe should we have stayed in China? I don’t know. I miss it a lot. I really do, it was my home for 5 years, and I mourn my old life a lot.

It just feels I’m stuck in limbo yet again. This time I’m studying Spanish, and yet again I just can’t see much progress in it. Also I can’t work because if I do get a job then I’ll have to say “Well thanks for the job offer but just to let you know I can’t work for at least 3 weeks in a few months time”. That certainly won’t look good. So both of us can’t look for jobs because we have our wedding.

So this and other things that are happening are just bothering me and making me unhappy, and I don’t know what to do.


Buying My Wedding Dress

So, I’ve managed to bag a bargain! My wedding dress cost a whopping……. €130! A. Wedding. Dress!

Buying a wedding dress was one thing that I was worried about having to splurge on. I simply don’t want to/ can’t afford to buy a dress that I’m only going to wear once. I know it’s a special day for me and all that, but no, even then I just can’t bring myself to buy a dress for €1,000 or more.

We were having a look around at dress shops here where we live, but most of them were just too fancy for me! Big puffed out dresses which just don’t appeal to me at all.


Source; gettyimages

We decided to head to Mexico city and have a look around. The first shop we went into had lovely dresses, and we saw a few wedding type dresses too, so I decided to try them on, and this is where I found mine! The shop is called ‘Massima‘ and I must say many of them were very nice.

I really liked two but I felt one fitted me a little better than the other. So there you go! I read that one woman tried on about 100 dresses, so I was thinking to myself  ‘Am I just not trying enough or what?‘. But after seeing that dress all the others that I saw in other shops just didn’t appeal to me anymore. I was set on that one.

We had to make some altercations to it so we are picking it up next week. I also bought shoes from a shop literally next door from the dress shop, so I pretty much have everything with regards to what I’m wearing!

I’m glad that I don’t have to worry about finding one now. I just have to look after my weight; this dress doesn’t stretch!

The address for this shop in Mexico city is: República de Uruguay, Centro, 06060 Ciudad de México, CDMX